I Wish I Never Met Him Two years ago, I met this guy online. He lived really close to me and we talked one night for a couple hours. He seemed like a really nice guy, but he wanted me to go to his house right off the bat, so I lost contact with him. Well, fast-forward to about seven months ago and I found him on faceable, so I added him as a friend. At first, I was Just wanting to be his friend, but we started talking online, then he started talking about sex, then he started talking about wanting to have sex with me.
He kept asking me over to his house and I kept telling him no. Well, finally I didn’t have any more excuses, so he came over to my house and watched a movie. He was a perfect gentleman; even though he made it clear he was attracted to me. Two nights later, he called and asked me to come over and hang out at his house. So I went… We ended up watching TV for a little bit, we drank a couple beers, and then we ended up having sex. It was completely unexpected for both of us. Well, after that, he would call every night (he worked nights), and we would talk… E hung out a few more times and talked on the phone less and less. We never really said what we were doing, but then I found his profile on a dating site before harvest. Meanwhile, I’m going through a lot of personal stuff. My father passed away the week before harvest, and then two days after he invites me over and we hang out. Fast-forward to Christmas…. He tells me he has a week off, but never offers to hang out, then two days after Christmas someone posts pictures of him at this other girls house for Christmas…. Hat’s when my heart first began to break, but then I hear from him on New Year’s day, he sings me happy airhead, and I feel better. So I’m thinking, Okay. Maybe they’re Just friends. Then a few weeks later, I see a message from her on his faceable that says, “l miss you booboo. :)” Well, I had been distancing myself from him and trying to get over him this entire time and I actually felt a lot better, but that broke my heart once again… But then that very day, HE CALLS.
At this point, I’m so confused; I don’t know what to do. Well, a week ago, he changed his relationship status from “single” to “In a relationship”. That broke my heart for the last time. I decided I couldn’t continue to be his friend and watch his new relationship unfold. I sent him a message basically just saying that I thought we had something going on, but apparently I was wrong, so have a nice life. He sent me a message back saying, “Wow, where did all that come from? I thought you were my friend… As if I was doing something bad to him. I tested him back and forth all night basically telling him that A) I don’t have sex with my friends (he claims It was a mistake, we Just got drunk and had sex), B) I don’t mess round with my friends later, C) I remember him referring to at least the first two times we hung out as “dates” (he doesn’t recall that), C) If we were such great friends, why didn’t he mention this new girl? (He claims even though we’re friends, we’re not “best friends”).
He swears he never lead me on and he only ever Just wanted to be friends, blah, blah, blah. But then he apologizes for hurting me and asks what he can do. I basically tell him he can pretend he never met me because I’m doing the same. So, I unverified him on Faceable, took him out of my phone, deleted every text Here’s the thing though, I can’t get it out of my mind. I don’t want to be with him and I know he’s scum, but I can’t stop thinking about him.
I even started seeing someone else and I still can’t get him out of my mind. I even had a dream about being his friend last night. This is so frustrating! I want to erase him from my mind, but I can’t. I couldn’t have remained friends with him because it would have broken my heart every time I saw something new about him and his new girlfriend. So I HAD to get rid of him, but I Just don’t know what to do to get him out of my head.
